Mommy wow! I'm a big kid now!

So... I'm overwhelmed-really overwhelmed. I cant really say that the feeling of "growing up" is a new to me ... because, well I've always considered myself to be quite mature and focused for my age. But at this current moment... I wish I could go back to being 5, where the biggest worry I had was if Count Dracula was going to be making an appearance on Sesame Street that day.

I'm 25 years old with a soon to be Masters in Travel and Tourism Management from NYU- what does that mean? I'm way to ambitious for my own good! I am seeking a job that is challenging, interesting and one that will hold me accountable! That's what I WANT... but I think the world is way to focused on my AGE therefore, I want to go back to being 5.

Another issue I face being a 25 year old, misunderstood, go- getter, is that I feel like I'm settling. I HATE SETTLING- I am not a "settler." (Although my best friend may disagree with this statement when it comes to men...but that's a whole different night).

Why does the corporate world have such a fascination with age and why do they feel that generation Xer's between the ages of 24-25 cant possibly do what a 40 year old can do! PLEASE.
I'm not perfect, but I have the sass and knowledge to run circles around some of my colleagues.

I'm not eager to grow up... I'm just anxious for the day that I'll be taken seriously. However, right now- the Care Bears are looking real nice!

Angels and Airwaves

So... I will admit I am a One Tree Hill fan. I havent always been a fan... but lately I find myself in front of the tube on Monday nights.

So Angels and Airwaves was featured on the episode tonight, and I am digging them! I know I may be the last person on this planet to discover them- but so what! I discovered them.

Secret Crowds
(If I had my own world)(I'd build you an empire)
If I had my own worldI'd fill it with wealth and desire
A glorious past to admireAnd voices of kids out walking, Dogs, birds, planes, cleanest cars
If I had my own world
I'd love it for all that's inside it
There'd be no more wars, death or riots
There'd be no more police, packed-parking lots, Guns, bombs sounding off,
If I had my own world
I'd build you an empireFrom here to the far lands
To spread love like violin
If I had my own world
I'd build you an empire
From here to the far lands
To spread love like violins
Let me feel you, carry you higher
Watch your words spread hope like fireSecret crowds rise up and gather
Hear your voices sing back louder
If I had my own world
I'd show you the life that's inside it
The way that it glows when you find it
The way it survives with it's families, Friends or it's enemies
Let's make this a new world
I swear you can go if you want toI know that you have that within you
Inventing the first clean and usable, God's greatest miracle
If I had my own world
I'd build you an empireFrom here to the far lands
To spread love like violins
If I had my own worldI'd build you an empire
From here to the far lands
To spread love like violinsLet me feel you, carry you higher
Watch your words spread hope like fire
Secret crowds rise up and gather
Hear your voices sing back louderLet me feel you carry you higher
Watch your words spread hope like fire
Secret crowds rise up and gather
Hear your voices sing back louder
Let me feel you carry you higher
Watch your words spread hope like fireSecret crowds rise up and gather
Hear your voices sing back louder
Let me feel you carry you higher
Watch your words spread hope like fire
Secret crowds rise up and gather
Hear your voices sing back louder

Taking the easy way out

Do you ever stop and wonder how life wouldve been if you decided to go down the other path? Perhaps take the "easy way out".

Maybe you did take the easy way out- so if thats the case... this blog wouldnt appeal to you.

It's a rainy Saturday night in NYC- its quiet in my new apartment and I got to thinking about life.

I know someone in my life who took the easy way out. When he was young he moved to California and moved right back to Jersey...

When he met me... he took the easy way out- couldn't handle what I had to offer so went right back to Jersey.

I pity him- I do.

You can follow the yellow brick road and be safe all your life, never take chances, never let go... or you can live.

Thank God I'm living.

Sometimes you cant fake the funk

So... I've been in what my circle of friends and I refer to as a "funk" for the past two weeks or so. What is a funk? You know... I've been a Debbie Downer... Sour Susan (you get it!).

Why does it seem like it's so much easier to wallow in the funk instead of fighting it? Because in life it is always simpler to look at the negative aspects in your life instead of the positive. So I have decided to blog about the fabulous things in my life instead of focusing on the yuck.

I am blessed to have a wonderful (I mean wonderful) family who loves me for the good and bad that I bring to the table.

I am blessed to have such amazing friends who make my stomach ache with great laughter and are always there to hear my insane stories day in and out. In fact, my best friend and her fiance (woohoo) are coming to NYC this weekend and I can't wait!

Times are tough... and I am blessed to have a JOB! A job that provides me with the means I need to live in New York City... one of the most magnificent (if not the most magnificent) cities in the world.

I have my health and God knows you cant put a price tag on that.

Like the great Mick Jagger says the hardest part is realizing, "You can't always get what you want, but if you try sometimes, you get what you need." Mick... I'll get there soon. :)

I'm a passionate nerd and I'm ok with that!

I just came home from school and I have to tell you I feel so completely enlightened.
EVERY Tuesday and Thursday afternoon right around 4:00 p.m. the same two thoughts pop into my mind..."Do I have to go to school?" "I should go to happy hour or maybe just relax at home." AND 9 times out of 10, I leave NYU feeling like I could conquer the world! OK- maybe not the world but I can most definitely conquer anything I set out to do. I love being in a room with my peers, listening to their stories about hospitality and tourism, guest service, management struggles... I love it! I feed off of my professors knowledge, wisdom and passion.
Tonight was a great night.

On a side note- it is Thursday and I am writing this post during a Grey's Anatomy commercial break and they have delivered (yet again) an amazing episode to the million of fanatics out there! I love to watch their relationships-relationships are the essence of our beings and I am blessed to have such wonderful ones in my life.

Changes are coming!

So... I may be moving to Jersey City and I may be starting a new job! Yikes!

Changes can definitely be scary- the very word change can stop people from chasing their dreams and stop them from living their lives to the fullest potential and well... that just wont do!

No one is to blame for the life that you choose not to lead. My thoughts- don't let change and the idea of "comfort" stop you from accomplishing what you set out to do.

No One Is To Blame

You can look at the menu but you just can't eat

You can feel the cushions but you can't have a seat

You can dip your foot in the pool but you can't have a swim

You can feel the punishment but you can't commit the sin

And you want her and she wants you

We want everyone

And you want her and she wants you

No one, no one, no one ever is to blame

You can build a mansion but you just can't live in it

You're the fastest runner but you're not allowed to win

Some break the rules

And live to count the cost

The insecurity is the thing that won't get lost

And you want her and she wants youWe want everyone

And you want her and she wants you

No one, no one, no one ever is to blame

You can see the summit but you can't reach it

It's the last piece of the puzzle but you just can't make it fitDoctor says you're cured but you still feel the pain

Aspirations in the clouds but your hopes go down the drain

And you want her and she wants you

We want everyoneAnd you want her and she wants you

No one, no one, no one ever is to blame

No one ever is to blame

No one ever is to blame

You got a fast car

I woke up this morning in such a glorious mood... a hopeful mood. I had a feeling I could be someone...I am someone.



With all the turmoil surrounding us these days - most of us probably feel like we want to just run away... get in the car and never come back. Problem is... I don't have a car- I live in NYC!



If you're ever feeling that way just try and remember those wonderful people who shine a light through your tunnel...



You got a fast car
I want a ticket to anywhere
Maybe we make a deal
Maybe together we can get somewhere
Anyplace is better
Starting from zero got nothing to lose
Maybe we'll make something
But me myself I got nothing to prove
You got a fast car
And I got a plan to get us out of here
I been working at the convenience store
Managed to save just a little bit of money
We won't have to drive too far
Just 'cross the border and into the city
You and I can both get jobs
And finally see what it means to be living
You see my old man's got a problem
He live with the bottle that's the way it is
He says his body's too old for working
I say his body's too young to look like his
My mama went off and left him
She wanted more from life than he could give
I said somebody's got to take care of him
So I quit school and that's what I did
You got a fast car
But is it fast enough so we can fly away
We gotta make a decision
We leave tonight or live and die this way
I remember we were driving driving in your car
The speed so fast I felt like I was drunk
City lights lay out before us
And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder
And I had a feeling that I belonged
And I had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone
You got a fast car
And we go cruising to entertain ourselves
You still ain't got a job
And I work in a market as a checkout girl
I know things will get better
You'll find work and I'll get promoted
We'll move out of the shelter
Buy a big house and live in the suburbs
You got a fast car
And I got a job that pays all our bills
You stay out drinking late at the bar
See more of your friends than you do of your kids
I'd always hoped for better
Thought maybe together you and me would find it
I got no plans I ain't going nowhere
So take your fast car and keep on driving
You got a fast car
But is it fast enough so you can fly away
You gotta make a decision
You leave tonight or live and die this way
-Tracy Chapman